September 29

She msg ,
Although hv feel... but i m not going try again.
Bcuz its just going to hurt myself back again.



Sooner or later will forget her,
All i need is time.
Even i cant forget,I just let it be even i love her does not mean have to be together.
Focus on my future and set it free.
I can do it.!!

Just a Dream.

This few week everytime i sleep i dream about her. i was like WTF....
But i tell myself is over.

what i gave to her,
I never hope or request to take back anything from her or belong to her.

I just want to spend my time with her,
See her thats all.

She might think i want something from her,
But is ok... (this is how i felt)

I am not going back to hurt and torture myself again.
This few week i been able to set back my track and goals.

Writing my feeling here really make me much more relief.
Well i guess i am human and i hv feelings.
Thanks to her cruelness ,
I told myself i will rise and successs,
I will show u what i got.
I wont fall.
I get back my respect and my pride.

Finally I ma getting bck my routine :)

Been sleep too long and I m awaken, I will achieve my goal,

September 16

Someday if u read my blog ,
I want to let u know...
Inside myself i dont have hate,angry and jealousy.

I might do alot of thing that upset u in past.

I might look like happy,
I might look like ntg happen,
But inside nobody knows..

But i never gave up hope......

I will move forward
And be successful in life.

Hope u will found a better person.

I just want to give the best of me .

I dont wish much,
I dont hope much,
I dont want anything from you.

I just wan to see your smile.
I am not a perfect person,
But i do know that my love for u is real.

Although is over now.
I will be a better person in future
.....

In future even if i pretend i do not know u.
Please forgive me.....
This is the best way i can do for both of us.

I am sorry....
I am not a perfect guy.

15september

Got exam paper tips for her frm my mmu friend, but ..... is ok, let it be.
Everything I do I nvr ask or hope for reward.
Is hurt .....
Think bck everytime break I m the one who contact bck,
But u getting into new relationship ,maybe is true u r nt the one for me,
This is u, I can't change u, mayb for u 2 -3year is ntg n boring already.
Fresh relationship will always feel good.

....September 14

The more i care the more i hurt....

is like love a doll that dont hv emotion,

My six sense told me already over....
Wont be the same again,

U already forget everything....
I feel so pain, But to know the fact and the truth.

I will accept it and moving forward starting today.


(Everything has to end before the new can begin)

I will remind myself.
I will accept the Fact and swallow it.

不值得, 我不应该考虑回我所作出的决定.
但我很高兴，我完成，我已经作出答应你的承诺.
为你所做的一切都是用我的心。。。
我不怪你,自尊???收回. 爱?你永远不会明白.

Haiz....

Sometimes wish to console you,
But i cant do too much,
Sometimes i wish to by on your side when you really need it,
But i m affraid will just make you go further away from me.

All i can do is pray for you.....
No one can understand this pain...

Only i do.
All i wan is to see yr smile even on the picture is enough...

To know how to appriciate , we need to go through sadness

Actually since past, We quarrel or any bad thing happened between us, i never keep in my heart...

All i do is forgive , Bcuz i truely love u with my heart...

i remembered once i drunk at movida,
And i push u....Almost hit u....

But when i m awaken, my hearts feel really pain bcuz of what i had done to the one thats i really love....

I do hope u forgive me.
Is a sin....

Since then i promised myself i wont go drunk again....

I cant believe it... when i facing love i am weaker then i tho...
U are stronger then i was.

letting go

Today johnson friend calling,
Ask me wan join him onot.....
Hard to make decision

Even if salary are highger but i cant just go like that.

Lets pray hope `God show me the road`

If there is one more chance...I will love u right.

Work hard for so long...

Hope my salary will rise again.
I need more money lol....

Gastric....

Walao eh @#$%^&*()

Having gastric is like hving a baby ...
Always kick me awake during midnight hour.....
Hope will fast recover, cant sleep well.... :(