Should not invite anyway. Should awake! FML -.-

33 Hour more end of 2011

Could not believe this year will be celebrating without you by myside.


33 more hours i will erase everything.


At least i can see both of us are happily moving forward with our life
isnt it? hee hee hee I am happy actually....But i also feel sad....For some reason i
dont know why.....?! why?! I could nt get the answer , Maybe u felt the same too? Do u?


Fck Fck Fck plz Dun emo again GARY LEE!!! Felt much better release it on my blog LOL!!

What done is done , I know i cant let go , I will make u hate me alot until cant bcome friends , So that the only way for me to let go . Is pain for me doing like this , Nobody know , Only i know , self know , U know? i dont think so...

Therefore keep meeting each other just will make me fall for u...If become friends? what will it be? Worst.... U should understand. Caring a person who doest love u and hate u just will make thing worst. I finally understand reason why ppl said long term relationship after break can't be friends. From what u see I look like hv a problem. If u dun wan a relationship just cut it , dun show emotion , and keep yr distance so will u keep my respect for u!

I want focus on my life .
Just let it be.... Even ENEMY. HATE me Dont be SOFT , OR i will fall again.
Everything u did even u don't have motive , I will feel like what u trying to do have motive to be together , when I comes u cut me in to half, I guess I was trying too hard and desperate to protect u, I gave love but I get abused , sometimes I do feel I am naive , I give but I dont like the feel being used , is true u feel I am selfish , Hw selfish I am compare to u ? Am I selffish enough to pay back revenge like you did? U said u understand love, really?? u said u went to ns I dint look for u , dint call u , how can I call since yr hp keep by teacher, during Sunday I can't even move a feet, how can I take off? Yes I do miss u a lot do u realize that? I wait for u 3month! When I was infected by chicken pox what u did? Revange? I m terribly sick lying on bed can't eat and sleep with skin full of pox , is that suffer then going ns? Have u ever realize ? REALIZE?
Every love story has an ending , I guess our end up like this. I dont hate you , I m regret seriously , I m regret bcuz thing should be better. U are not the person I knew long ago the 1st time I meet. Just like 2 person. At least is a great experience and growing up

You are the reason why i bcome stronger, But u are my weakness.

September 29

She msg ,
Although hv feel... but i m not going try again.
Bcuz its just going to hurt myself back again.



Sooner or later will forget her,
All i need is time.
Even i cant forget,I just let it be even i love her does not mean have to be together.
Focus on my future and set it free.
I can do it.!!

Just a Dream.

This few week everytime i sleep i dream about her. i was like WTF....
But i tell myself is over.

what i gave to her,
I never hope or request to take back anything from her or belong to her.

I just want to spend my time with her,
See her thats all.

She might think i want something from her,
But is ok... (this is how i felt)

I am not going back to hurt and torture myself again.
This few week i been able to set back my track and goals.

Writing my feeling here really make me much more relief.
Well i guess i am human and i hv feelings.
Thanks to her cruelness ,
I told myself i will rise and successs,
I will show u what i got.
I wont fall.
I get back my respect and my pride.

Finally I ma getting bck my routine :)

Been sleep too long and I m awaken, I will achieve my goal,